Possibility as sung by Lykke Li in New Moon

i woke up with this song stuck in my head. i looked it up on the net, but none of the pages i found seemed to have the lyrics quite right. So i modified them to what i think they actually are. This song is awesome, they use it when Bella is sitting in her room, staring off into nothing, for the months without description that occur directly after Edward leaves and Sam finds Bella in the woods.

It's a possibility
It's a possibility
All that I had was all I'm gonn' get
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There's a possibility
There's a possibility
All I wanted is gone with your stare
All I wanted is gone with your stare

So tell me when you hear my heart stop
You're the only one who'd know
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

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Know that when you leave
Know that when you leave
By blood about me you'll walk like a thief
By blood about me I fall when you leave

So tell me when you hear my heart stop
You're the only one who'd know
Tell me when you hear my silence
There's a possibility I wouldn't know

So tell me when my sigh is over
You're the reason why I'm closed
Tell me when you hear me fallin'
There's a possibility it would show

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By blood and by me I fall when you'll leave
By blood and by me i follow your lead

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Luna Nueva

There were posters all over Barcelona, particularly on the metro. i finally saw it on Saturday. Let me just say that it was a huge relief because it was sooo much better than the Twilight movie was. i can hardly wait for Eclipse to come out now! We'll have to see how much longer i can wait to see it again, but right now i'm in the midst of finals (of course).

ETA: Yeah, the Remember Me preview was pretty awesome, and i'm not even a Pattinson fan. Gotta love having Claire from Lost, who's got the same dad as in October Sky.

New Moon... dang it

So yesterday i forced my sister to finally watch Twilight, and inexplicably i was noticing new things, probably because i was knitting and that just increases my awareness. Afterwards we watched the New Moon trailers; i am so excited, but we'll be in the Mediterranean when it premieres, so i'm going to have to wait a while to see it. One of the things that has bothered me about Twilight (in the parking lot accident) and New Moon (in the birthday party and Volturi scenes of the trailers) is the haphazard physicality that is going on. Edward wasn't meant to just stop the van with his hand, it was more involved than that in the book: he lifted the van, shifted Bella's legs out of the way so they wouldn't get pinned, etc. They so dropped the ball in the movie, even cutting out Bella's head injury (many of the things they changed in the movie made absolutely no sense whatsoever). Well it seems to be continuing in New Moon, unfortunately. First off, it's been a while since i read it, but i don't remember things coming to blows in the Volturi's inner sanctum. The more obviously glaring mistake is in the birthday scene, where Edward seems to be forcibly shoving Bella backwards (which is something he would never do, just as he would have never taken Bella to play baseball when there was a random vampire killing people in the area) and tackling Jasper. In the book, it's true that Edward knocks Bella over, but he's using himself as a shield, not destroying pianos with his brother. i guess TPTB felt they had to play the scene up, when in reality it's dramatic enough on its own, and the entire point of the scene is that the incident was not really a big deal in Bella's mind, so much as it was in Edward's.

i don't know who is making these choices on the film, but they need to get with it. Vampires are hyper aware and super strong and can make decisions faster than a normal human, and they don't go around haphazardly shoving people about because they've already come to blows several times in the blink of an eye. Taylor Lautner's physicality while jumping in Bella's window is the level they needed all of the movie's stunts to be at, and i don't know if that means stunt doubles, or cgi, or what, but what they are currently doing is not cutting it. The consumers of movies are now used to bullet time, you can't get buy with shoddy film making like this and just expect the consumer to ignore it. What are they going to do in Eclipse when the Cullens are teaching the wolf pack how vampires fight? i imagine they'll probably skip the scene entirely, because it's too expensive or impractical, but these movies are turning into the Harry Potter films, where they seem to randomly cut things out and rearrange plot lines and later realize... "what the heck are we supposed to do now, we royally botched this." Have these people read the books? Cuz it looks like they haven't, and most of their audience has.

Then there's the indecency of this screenshot (featured on Twilighter's Anonymous), where Mr. Pattinson's pants are practically falling off: his six pack looks air brushed on, and... did someone bite his left nipple? Every time i see the preview, i cannot help but think "wow, i did not want to just see his pubes" (was that from Wayne's World? i think it was).

i don't know, maybe i am assuming too much, maybe the average consumer isn't as aware of film making as i am, but i just expect better. i'm looking forward to seeing New Moon, but i already expect to be just as disappointed by it as i was by Twilight. The book is always better.

ETA: Is it just me, or is the Volvo black now??? Why?

hectic finals preparation

i've only been watching Lost, Fringe, and two eps of Inu-Yasha lately. Every once in a while i'll catch an episode of Alias with my mom and sister (they're my dvds, but my sister is watching them for the first time, and some of them are new to my mom, too). i haven't been overly excited about Lost this season, it's been kind of interesting, but not enthralling. i'm hoping for a Daniel episode next week.

Fringe, on the other hand, is always interesting. i loved seeing the mini-Observer! And finding out about Olive... wow. Was it just me, or was her blanket starting to get bleached white when she woke up the first time (just like in the video at the end)??? It is going to be very interesting to see where this show is going. i think the woman in video is probably Nina Sharp and that next week we might finally get to meet the elusive CEO of Massive Dynamic (it's almost sweeps).

i am taking a break from WoW at least until finals are over: i don't have time to commit with it when i have work and school and am training for a triathlon. i have been reading a little bit of Twilight fanfic again and spoilers about New Moon. Mostly i am focused on RL though.

Saw the original Day the Earth Stood Still last week, was not impressed. It had pretty good special effects but the character development was thin while the director seemed to have an obsession with filming confused soldiers driving around in circles in the dark. i hope to see the new version with Keanu soon.

As far as reading, i'm slowly working on the War of the Rose trilogy (have the Last Paladin, can hardly wait to read it!) i should be focusing on Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close, the Commitments, and other school related fare, but am sooo ready for summer break. i really, really, REALLY hate finals.

Twilight - overanalyzing the small stuff (100th post!)

So i'm indulging in a little Watch-Movies.net... i hate being broke all the time, i can't go see Twilight in the theater again until i get paid again, i need to save the money for gas so i can make it to work and school. But i wanted to give a rundown of my feelings while watching Twilight. Once again i think it's more negative than i truly feel. Why is it so much easier to point out errors than good?

Neutral - can we have another 10s of Phoenix? The sky isn't quite blue enough, but the Southwest Airlines is great. The switch from desert mountain to pacific northwest vista is great (heat instantly to snow). Incidentally, i read a review that calls Arizona "flat" (as opposed to mountainous). Excuse me? Arizona is not Colorado, but it is far from flat. Tornadoes are a rare thing there because there are too many mountains, small as they may be. The state is full of mountains, and even the desert is far from flat.

Incidentally, the same review said that Bella's thoughts are supposed to be brilliant, but her internal narration is rather lame. You know, i kind of agree, there are large silences without it, and she ends up thinking rather inane things.

Like - Billy Black, though he's not quite how i pictured him, wins me over. Charlie doesn't quite pull it off... not balding enough, and a little too annoying really.

Neutral - The parking lot (Bella's car is supposed to fit in!), the gym scene... something about Mike rubs me wrong (moreso than in the book), Bella's joke is good, Jessica's uncomfortable giggle: even better. The newspaper: i grew up in a town about the same size, the school paper never writes a feature about the new girl. Do any girls really talk about guys packages in a cafeteria? (i certainly haven't ever...)

Dislike - So why did Bella go into the school office? i really don't like the Diner and drunk Santa.

Like - Bella's Mom, apparently where the curls come in. Emmett standing up in his jeep as Jasper drives it up. Bella reading in the parking lot, a little uncomfortable with being the center of attention.

Dislike - No snow chains (like i said, messes us Tyler's accident). The killings of Humans isn't supposed to be until the next book (this makes Edward's lack of concern leading up to the Baseball Scene make absolutely no sense whatsoever, because it proves that the Vampires are a threat before they are even met, while in the book they are curious about the vegetarian lifestyle and on their good behavior at first).

Like - the Golden Onion (lol, making the science teacher quirky).

Neutral - The Science Experiment scene is greatly reduced: no hand touch, so no early clue. No inquiring teacher about Bella's participation in the lab. The microscope sounds like it's really, really heavy, and seems difficult to move. If so, why couldn't they have made a show of Edward passing it just a little too fast?

Dislike - Shortened accident, no Edward in the Ambulance or ER, no head trauma.

Like - Reference to Renee freaking out, early introduction of Rosalie freaking out.

Neutral - i feel like we should have gotten to see a little bit of Bella's dream, but i guess Edward actually being in her room was a nice trade off. i have woken up so many times over the years with the feeling that something was standing over me in the dark, only to discover that nothing was there when i turned on the light.

Mike asking Bella to the prom (it's too early, but it's cuz they shortened the time frame). How obvious it is that Edward was eavesdropping; it makes his later revelation too obvious, and Bella's lack of insight into it make her look dumb.

the Greenhouse: if you're going to pull in a totally new set (that wasn't in the book), you think they would feature it a bit more. Why is Bella drinking water out of the tap when there are water bottles on the counter? Jessica is better at surfing than the guys (lol).

Dislike - Angela being into Eric. The way the werewolves just look like wolves. Jacob not telling Bella what the Cullens are... so wrong.

Disike - While Victoria pulling the boat back is a neat trick, the Playing with Your Food scene is so unnecessary. It also doesn't make sense that they're hanging out near a small town, where people are likely to recognize outsiders and the increasing body count than in a city.

Ugh, the Native American bookstore: the terms of the Treaty say that the Quilutes can't reveal the nature of themselves or the Cold Ones, why would they be writing books about it? And if someone had, why would they be selling them locally? It would be banned. It's also a little too close to the New Age store that she passes up in the book.

Like - Jessica sunning.

Neutral - Bella being so disinterested in the dress shopping (man Jessica's dress is racy). It's true to character, but she's a little too disinterested, to the point of almost being rude.

Really Like - Bella getting a punch in; the way Edward pulls out when fleeing the would-be-rapists. And--when i think about it--said rapists being frightened of Edward.

Dislike - how different are those guys thoughts than Edwards were? The time in the car is too short, no cooldown for Edward, he's instantly being polite.

Neutral - Edward's a bit annoying when he laughs about the seatbelt; this is perfectly in character for Bella, she follows traffic laws because her dad is a cop...

Dislike - ...for instance, she should be commenting on Edward's speeding. The hand touch is too slight, and an entire scene is cut out. i feel so cheated. Not to mention, Edward shouldn't be staring straight forward and looking... annoyed? Half the time i don't even know what Edward is feeling or thinking.

Extremely Dislike - how Bella hasn't figured it out before the time she willingly gets in the car with Edward. We didn't need the browsing the book and internet reveal, the three thoughts (1 - vampire, 2 - thirst, 3 - in love) should have come before, not after, along with the knowledge that the vampires are vegetarians. Also said in that review... Edward in the sun is supposed to be scary? i like the way they did his skin just fine, but the way they led up to it is all wrong. Edward's running looks fake. Blooper: Edward opens his shirt slightly, and then it's instantly buttoned up again. His shirt is supposed to be completely unbuttoned. The "i'm a killer debate" is supposed to be in the dark, in the car, while the Meadow is meant to be about revealing everything, opening up. Yeah, he rips the tree apart and says that he's designed to kill in the Meadow, but this is just a little too dark.

Like - Perceptive Bella ("I feel like you're going to disappear") and the "Lion fell in love with the Lamb" exchange (oh so cheesy, but so, so good).

Dislike - the Turning scene is out of order, its supposed to be at the house, after the introductions, and shouldn't start with "do you have to be dying." No mention of Jasper's talent at all, he constantly looks like he's in pain, as if that's his only emotional state. And "I'm glad I amuse you"???

Like - How they're super obvious about Jacob's crush this early. How the Cullens are "Making Italiano."

Dislike - No silky blue blouse, no cross on the wall. Spider monkey?!?

Love - Bella's Lullaby. My first thought was that it wasn't a Lullaby, but now it is totally stuck in my head. Thank God for the soundtrack, i can't go to the theater every day, as much as i'd like to.

Dislike - Charlie discovers that it's a "Human," not an animal, after telling Billy that a couple of scenes earlier.

Neutral - Mike is a jock? Stephenie has to have the veggie plate? (come to think of it, why is Bella eating veggie burgers? there's nothing in the book to indicate that she's a vegetarian)

Like - Observant Renee? "Are you being safe?" (i can't believe she said that lol)

The kiss, though i'm not sure why Edward leaps off the bed like that. It's cool, but they don't show the cause, just the effect.

Neutral - Charlie doesn't know who saved his daughter (twice lol). They left out how he thought she was talking about Emmett. Cleaning the shotgun is funny, but a little over the top.

Like - Edward's formality, group date, this is safe mentality. Embarrassing (to Bella) pepper spray comments.

Incidentally, that first reviewer said it was dumb that vampires would like baseball. Vampires are competitive, how hard is that to believe? They have to throw the game in gym class, in the meadow they can let loose and be themselves, kind of like how they're house is their refuge.

Carlisle's "Nice kitty" comment to Rosalie.

Neutral - So, Bella says hey to Edward just seconds after seeing him downstairs. Her argument with Charlie is weak, they should have stuck to the book. i wish they would have used the full conversation in the jeep, too, with it being Bella's strategy to go to Arizona and hide in the last place James would expect.

Like - Bella's truck squealing as it comes to a halt in front of the Cullens.

Dislike - They should have asked Alice what the best strategy would be. Leaving at the same time wasn't it.

Like - Carlisle saying Bella's a part of the family. Bella's worry. Rosalie marking the tree (weird, i know). Alice and Jasper holding hands; his concern in the hotel (finally some other emotion than pain, lol).

Neutral - James is tracking Edward and pseudo-Bella... in the book, isn't it the other way around? And doesn't James make sure that he stays out of range of Edward's mind reading?

Odd - Wet parking lot in Phoenix?

Dislike - James' control around a bleeding Bella (he isn't a vegetarian, after all).

Like - Edward's distraction and struggle with his bloodlust.

Dislike - the bite is way too big and noticeable.

Like - Carlisle's control and clear head... as a doctor he's been around blood a lot more than the rest have. But he should have had the medical kit on hand...

Blooper - Bella doesn't have a cast on in the hospital.

Like - Charlie's sarcasm, especially in response to Edward's claim that the cast is perfect.

Neutral - the prom is supposed to be in the gym, and the other couples in the gazebo are distracting.

Dislike - "You wanna go?"?? As soon as they get to the prom, Edward seems to want to leave.

Love the music! (Have I found you... such weird lyrics). i'm not sure how Bella could have a long and happy life with Edward that doesn't have sex and that she gets old in.

Question - Do vampires get red eyes when they can't cry real tears?

What i miss: the blood-typing incident, the hotel and airport events, Edward not liking the way the blood transfusion smelled, the high heel with the ribbons, though the leggings and sneakers are definitely a nice touch i was expecting a longer dress.

i'm sorry if this format annoys, i'm overanalytical and have been obsessing about Twilight for the past few weeks. i wish Stephenie would write something new or the fanfic writers i'm following would update more often! i guess it's probably illegal to watch movies that were taped in theaters, and in fact i haven't watched one in over six months now; i guess that tells you how much i'm hooked on Twilight.

hehe random Twilight moment

Edward's angel wings in Biology were interesting (they were really owl wings).

Twilight reviewed

Well i finally saw Twilight at the theater on Thanksgiving Day. It was a bit distracting because of who was sitting behind me and down the row on my right. Both groups were very vocal. The women beside me were bemoaning the fact that Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince is so far away, and were prone to make appreciative noises while Edward was gracing the screen. The guys behind me were less appreciative (lol), most noticeably when Bella is freaking out about Edward leaving her at the hospital, and is rendered heart wrenchingly speechless as a result.

Let me start by saying that the music and casting in this film was for the most part excellent. I have no major complaints about the movie, but the book is sooooooo much better. In fact, my biggest complaint about the film is that they condensed it too much, leaving out really, really good dialogue and handling the exposition poorly as a result. The movie felt like it was on fastforward, and probably slightly confuses people who don't know the books in some ways.

So i guess i feel compelled to list what my complaints are, along with what i liked about the movie. In a very minor way, Bella's house, father, and the Cullen's house is nothing like what i pictured, which isn't necessarily bad, it's just different. James was very weak, and also annoying. The scene in the ballet studio was too short, and also a bit campy with the dancing around the fire. There were many things that were slightly changed, that left me feeling wrong, such as the way Bella's leg is broken, how James doesn't feel any bloodlust when Bella is bleeding, and how he bites her on the forearm, not her hand. Carlisle having to order Edward to stop because Bella's blood is clean and he's killing her was also just wrong. There are lots of little things in the film like this that they just did not need to change and weakened the film. In fact, the movie ended up feeling like a rough draft with large parts left out, nowhere near ready to be filmed, let alone on the screen.

My biggest complaint, i think, is the accident in the school parking lot. TPTB didn't make it obvious that Tyler's van had slid on ice and Charlie was sort of over the top with how hostile he was. More importantly, they changed details far too much; in the book, Edward not only stopped the van, he lifted it off Bella and adjusted her position so it wouldn't pin her beneath it. She also hit her head, and he didn't abandon her. As the scene stands in the movie, it is completely inexplicable how she could have survived from the perspective of a bystander, because Edward didn't "push her out of the way;" the van apparently miraculously stopped just short of hitting her and inexplicably acquired a dent in the process. In other words, movie Edward majorly botched things, while book Edward actually handled things more smoothly.

That said, there were things from the movie that i enjoyed, and of course wanted to see more of. The Cullen household is a good example, despite campy repeatings of "we'll tear him apart and burn the pieces." Alice, in particular, was awesome, from start to finish: dancing with Jasper in the cafeteria, walking on the branch and stepping into the kitchen, pitching the baseball, seeing the vision in the hotel and fighting the urge to drink Bella's blood in the ballet studio. Ashley Greene is perfect in Alice's shoes, i really regret that they totally cut large parts of her story out, though i will admit that her backstory wasn't integral to the plot. i definitely would have loved to see more of the Cullens.

There was so little character development in the film that i'm afraid that people who haven't read the book aren't going to understand at all the depth of the bond between Edward and Bella, or his bloodlust, nor Carlisle's full history. The biggest complaint i have read from reviewers is of course the usual one, that the Cullens are too perfect to identify with (rather like complaints i have heard in the past about Lost in Space). i do not struggle with this at all... i mean, if i was by some "accident" turned into a vampire, would i just surrender to my "nature" (as most vampires do in vampire stories)? No, i would be like Carlisle and the rest of the Cullens, i would be at odds with and fight against those urges. Which is why i don't generally like the vampire genre, to be perfectly honest: Van Hellsing stunk for the most part and MSC's production of Dracula was horrible, i was so glad after seeing it that i hadn't been cast in it, i would have been so embarrassed to be in such a lame play. i guess the trouble is that most people don't fight against their sinful nature anymore, but from a Christian (or Mormon) standpoint, the Cullens are much more realistic than any other vampires we've ever read about or seen. That's in part why i like the Underworld series as well, Selene is not a mindless killer, she doesn't want to murder humans, she quenches her thirst by visiting a blood bank, etc.

The whole diner bit was annoying, but i liked Stephenie Meyer's cameo. i hadn't been expecting it at all. i have no idea why they made Bella go in that stupid bookstore (again, not what happened in the book) instead of letting Jacob tell her that the Cullens are vampires like he was supposed to. Edward revealed far too much to Bella far too early as a result, it makes much more sense in the book when she knows what Edward is when she gets in the car and guesses that he can read minds, etc. For some reason TPTB forgot that Edward and Bella were supposed to be tucked into a secluded corner of the restaurant, left them smack dab in the middle, and cut out lots and lots of character development that really would have helped the film so very much. The meadow scene, while okay, just turned out to be a bit lame as a result. In fact, Bella's angry walk into the woods, when Edward cannot read her mind, just doesn't really make sense. The planned date to the meadow (in the book) does... in fact, it is perhaps the most integral scene in the book because it was Stephenie's dream of said scene that inspired her to write Twilight.

They did capture Edward's self loathing, but he just seemed a little too much of a whiner. i was really relieved that they didn't cast Hayden Christensen but it still felt like Rob Patterson was trying to channel him (a la Ani in Star Wars II and III). Ugh, my review is coming across really harsh. So... in conclusion, great casting for the most part, sub par script, slightly jarring cinematography, excellent music, overall it was okay, but could have been so, so much better.

It doesn't surprise me that people who haven't read the books think that the movie stinks, i would too, would shrug it off as yet another lame teen chick flick. Stephenie Meyer's is such a better writer than that, she doesn't deserve her incredible book being hacked up like this. i'll write more if i see the movie again, but right now i'm just feeling a bit let down and complained more than i meant to as a result.

Grey Day Flower Power

Today i watched the last two episodes of Grey's Anatomy. The past couple of weeks i saw a lot more of That '70's Show than usual cuz i was housesitting and they had satellite. In fact, most of the episodes i had never seen before. Both shows have extramarital sex, one show has drugs, a part of me wonders if i should even be watching them.

But they make me laugh. They don't give me an overwhelming urge to smoke a joint or jump into the sack with someone, they make me feel better for a minute. Right now, i can take all of the laughter i can get. i've been far too depressed lately. What's great about Grey's Anatomy is that everyone is more psychotic than i am, so i don't feel so bad. What's great about That '70's Show is that everyone messes up, does stupid stuff, laughs at themselves and each other, and at the end of the day they're still friends.

i don't have that: i have no friends, i don't have a "person" to talk to about my problems that helps me get through the day. God doesn't say anything. No guys or gals like me for me, not really. If the people i know really knew me, they wouldn't want to have anything to do with me. It's very sad really. Anyway, all i know is that, while there are sinful actions taking place, i am not endorsing said actions, or participating in them, and sin happens, i can't control it. All i can do is try to control myself, like Edward in Twilight and Midnight Sun, or Harry Potter. i cannot control the circumstance i am in, i can only try to make the best of them. And that's what i'm trying so very hard to do.

Off to finally see Eagle Eye tonight, can hardly wait for Wrath and Twilight. i need to get ready to go to the theater.

i've been bitten

Some of you that are observant may have noticed: i changed the header again. There's been a sudden influx of women on it, but what can you do (not everything can be equal all the time). Anyway, the newest addition (two were just new photos from the same show as before, a newer image of Ellen Pompeo and Hayden Panetierre instead of Milo Ventimiglia) is from a poster for the upcoming film Twilight, which stars Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson.

Yes, i have been turned, or bitten if you will, by the Twilight Saga bug. i started reading them about two and a half weeks ago and have been completely unable to put them down, truth be told. i cannot get enough of Edward and Bella and Alice. i was even certain, from the moment in Breaking Dawn when (highlight) Bella realizes she's pregnant, that she was going to have a girl and that Jacob would imprint on her. It's a bit surprising to me, for Cedric (from Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire) to be Edward, but i have no real objection to it i suppose, from the previews and stills he seems to have done an excellent job. i haven't seen Kristen Stewart in anything since Panic Room, and she isn't exactly how i picture Bella, but i'm not sure that Emily Browning would have been a better choice, and i certainly didn't like Michelle Trachtenberg for the part (i've been checking out fanart on DeviantArt, can you tell?). The van on ice accident doesn't look as good as i imagined it (i see it in slow mo with Edward clearly lifting the van and shouldering it out of the way, not slamming his hand into it in a way that looks overkill and unnecessary), but i have hopes that the finished product will look better on the big screen. Some of the casting choices aren't exactly how i pictured things, but aren't overtly terrible either. i am certainly looking forward to the movie. One of the nice things about becoming a fan later on is that there isn't as much waiting, i read all the books back to back and the movie is already in (or out of) post production.

Now if only Stephenie Meyer would continue writing Midnight Sun (/sad)... the chapter on her site is really good, and the Host just isn't cutting it for me right now. i'm going to reread Twilight soon. Anyways, time to get ready to go to church.